Life Without Envy
Okay, friends, it's time to get your book club on! I'm so excited to be exploring the issues of jealousy with you all. Instead of discussing here on the FB page and blowing it up, I started a Google Community Page for our book club purposes. You need Google Plus, which is free and easy to navigate. Search for "Pneuma Creative Book Club" and ask to join. Here's a little post I wrote about it:
Wow, do we need this book! I'm so glad it's out in the world. Jealousy is a veritable epidemic in the arts world. It's something I've struggled with for a long time, an almost irrational jealousy that made it impossible for me to appreciate the enormous blessings in my life, among them being able to quit my day job and write full time. I often mention that I'm pretty sure all the emotional struggles and mindfucks we have as artists are based in fear. Fear lies at the heart of so much that we do, which is why next month's book is Art and Fear (David Bayles & Ted Orland).
We are jealous because we are afraid. Of failure, of never measuring up, of what people will think of us. We're afraid that our dreams will never come true and when they do, we're afraid it won't last (Brene Brown calls this "for boding joy," something that has plagued me for the past many years). We don't want to feel this way. We know we're in an endless cycle of suffering. We want it to stop, but we don't know how to get off the hamster wheel.
This is why we're reading this book.
I'm hoping that this month of thinking and reading about the topic of envy will help break us open a bit. This is a sticky subject to grapple with. There is so much shame involved.
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